Revelling in the Silence

It has been 10 days since my last post, and that was a review, so not really a proper post at all. After the frenzy of posting that was September, I sort of fell out of the habit in October. Also, plenty of project deadlines were approaching and I need to buckle down to some serious work.

Other than paid content work, I’ve also started helping make my mom’s jewellery designs. I have some terrible photographs I took to send to my aunt, but they are really too awful to put up here. Each design is a complicated affair with multiple changes of thread, thanks to clear crystals, and complex patterns which draw on my completely forgotten school geometry skills.

But more than all of that: I needed silence.

I don’t know why the year is starting to take its toll on me now, but real fatigue has now set in. I deleted the Facebook and Twitter apps off my phone, so I only see notifications if I log into the sites on my laptop – which is rare. I deliberately swiped away all Whatsapp notifications as they appeared, and ended up staying away from it for about a couple of weeks. And more than all of that, I haven’t left the house in over a week.

It was marvellous. I listened to podcasts, happily plugged away with my work, and watched movies and TV shows by the bucketload. I didn’t read any books, which is awful, but I was too drained for the effort by the end of the day.

Today, I had to trek to the parlour, because I was looking unkempt to say the very least. I have a meeting tomorrow and the day after, and I have to look somewhat human, rather than primate. And because of the anxiety I was feeling about going out, I gave myself a stress headache in the morning.

India is not a quiet place, at least Mumbai most certainly isn’t. One is bombarded with sensations as soon as you step out the door. The smells, sights, and sounds are so violently physical, they assault those who are not used to it. And having emulated a hermit for the last so many days, I wasn’t used to it any more.

I actually was anxious about going out. Something so simple, something I did every day for years without a thought. My only attempt to protect myself from the assault was my earphones and podcasts playing on my phone.

I don’t know why or when or how I became a hermit. But that’s what I am now. The silence is amazing.


Series Review: Mysteries of Laura

I started watching Mysteries of Laura mostly by accident. I saw it had Debra Messing, who I remembered as the vaguely annoying Grace Adler from Will & Grace, and decided to watch one episode.

I was hooked.

Premise: Laura Diamond is an NYPD detective who is smart, unorthodox, and a recent divorcee single mom with twin sons. She juggles all the components of her life fairly well, until her ex-husband is appointed to be the police chief at her precinct.

Review: Mysteries of Laura was a great show that was sadly cancelled after two seasons, and on a cliffhanger no less! The tone was light, even though each episode was built around a murder.

The first season was truly exceptional, as the focus moved from one team member to the next. There was even spotlight on her children. The intermingled personal stories made for interesting watching, and a difference in storytelling. The second season was entirely about Laura’s love triangle. It started to pall a bit, although the writers and actors did a great job of making it super difficult to pick sides. By the end of the show, you were left truly caring about the characters.

Theme: Mysteries of Laura is a light procedural, with lots of humour thrown in. It is especially liberally peppered with feminist and equality overtones, with a distinctly multicultural cast.

Characters: The first season really developed each character, even though Laura Diamond is the principal character. You see snippets of Billy’s, Meredith’s, and Max’s lives, even if it doesn’t directly move the plot forward. It served really well to develop well-rounded characters that weren’t merely living props in Laura’s path. The second season dropped some of this focus, and the other characters took on a sort of settled quality, like their storylines were over. That was sad, because it would have been wonderful to see some growth.

Acting: I wonder why all American shows have impossibly gorgeous people, but that didn’t bias my opinion of the acting. Debra Messing was magnificent, because the lady is one glamorous woman in real life, and here she comes across as a harassed mother of twins perfectly. She wears oversized shirts over jeans, and she is truly fantastic. The others played great supporting characters, and it was fun to watch the quirks they incorporated into their roles. Also, being an Indian, it was pretty thrilling to watch Janina Gavankar on a mainstream American show.

What I liked: Everything. Josh Lucas + Laz Alonso + Neal Bledsoe = Tremendous eye candy.

What I disliked: It got cancelled far too soon.

Rating: ✩✩✩✩

I truly hope another network picks it up, but I doubt it will retain that wonderful chemistry in a new avatar.


Off One Hook, Onto Another

So, I met my target of blogging daily for the month of September. In fact, I got so into it, there were days I had so much to say, I wrote several posts all at once. I did schedule the posts, so that my feed wouldn’t be inundated though.

Then October dawns, and I needed a break. So I took one. I was rather pleased with the success of one resolution, and I was hot on the heels of another: weight loss.

Now, I have a tendency to get derailed if I encounter a setback. And I did encounter a setback. I went for the first session with my trainer, and promptly pulled a muscle in my back. While this was a real setback, there is another one that exists purely in my mind: I weighed myself. The number on the scale shocked me into acute humiliation, even though I was the only one there.

I briefly contemplated putting it out here, so it would goad me into sticking to the plan. But I couldn’t. And the tug of war between embarrassment and the guilt of feeling the embarrassment [my mind is such a mess!] rendered me incapable of doing anything.

Today has dawned differently though, and I have been tackling projects all over the place. I have an ongoing tussle with procrastination, and I need to kick it more firmly in the butt.